Sick of Being Stuck, Time for a Life Change
I have bought countless self help books over the years. I’ve known that I’ve wanted things to change for a long time but no matter what, nothing has changed. This has been going on now for about 10 years. Course after course, book after book, conference after conference and nothing changed. From free Rich Dad Poor Dad courses to seminars with Mark Victor Hansen. Nothing. I had about gave up all hope on me till I heard about Christy Dianne Farr. I had heard about her through Attachment Parenting International. She used to work there and I serve on the board of directors and heard so many great things that I have had her on our show a number of times before finally seeking out help.
“All great changes are preceded by chaos.”-Depak Chopra
Well if this is true I am due for some great change! I feel like my life to date has been a chaotic blur of just barely getting by. I understand that I am not the only mama out there that feels out of control and frazzled. That’s why I finally decided to see a life coach. After a lot of denial and fighting myself, I realized I need to say, “I don’t want to do this anymore!!!” and mean it.
I took a crazy approach and have decided to do all of my private life coach talks with Christy on the air, live. Yes, live. So far we have talked about topics I never dreamed airing in front of anyone, let alone a couple hundred listeners a week. The thing that has made it easier for me to do this than I thought is all the encouraging emails I’ve received since we started 6 weeks ago. Six weeks ago?! I know I hear you, “Gena, what has taken you so long to write more about this?!” Well. To be honest, I love promoting the show, but now it’s different. Now I feel like I’m saying, “I’m a hot mess, come and look!” What I have to keep in mind is that I’m not the only mama/spouse/woman that feels this way. It’s true. I’m not the only mama that feels overwhelmed, under valued, and in over her head.
My Biggest Challenge
Since we (Christy and I )started talking I have cleaned out my garage, I have tossed out 27 things from my closet, my pantry my kitchen. I have emptied my garage of everything but empty boxes. I have redone my website and even cleaned/organized my closet! I have done ANYTHING! To avoid cleaning out a corner of my room.
If you’ve followed the series you would know that outside of the kitchen my biggest obstacle between myself and peace of mind is this corner of my room. It houses bills and obligations and is the real life monster in my life…
Of course the pile of bills isn’t really the monster. It’s me. In my last talk with Christy I realized that the corner was more like the Mirror Gate from the Never Ending Story.
I didn’t want to face it. If I go through all that paperwork I will find out that I’m that I’m a _____ adult, a _______ mom, a _____ wife, a ______ business woman… (you fill in the insecure word of your choice in the blanks).Who among us can look into that mirror that reflects your true self and not cringe? So this week I will be trying to go after this damn corner. Wish me luck. I’m going to need it. This corner is something I just can’t seem to kick. I feel like I can’t really sum up how I feel about it in words, so I will let this picture say what I can’t about this monstrous pile of paperwork.
“Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.”-Martin Luther King Jr.
I know it doesn’t have to be this way, but getting started has been so hard. I’ve decided though that if I just take this first step, the rest will come. Here I go, wish me luck…